Haha I feel retarded posting so many times a day -.-
But nvm, pretty lyrics are always worth it :D



Hello, happy 19th day :D
Yknow ily a lot right <3
Sometimes I really don't know how I survived those 10 years without you O:
(& hell, I can't stop smiling to myself 'cause of that display name -.-)

♥

Labels: ily, lyrics

Because you are all the reasons why/♥

Current song: Because You Live - Jesse McCartney
Current mood: Neutral

Felt horrible on the bus today :/
Almost-vomitted like three times or something ._.
Then was desperately trying to get off the bus in case I vomit there or something, and that Year 1 girl refused to move! -.-
She just sat there and yawned, wth ._. (Does she want me to vomit on her or what? D:)

Science @ lab :D
Virtual Field Trip to Chek Jawa O:

Maths.
I seriously don't understand a thing about mensuration ._.

Recess.
Wuyue spilled Jia Qi's peach tea on her skirt -.-
Then Jiaqi & Yunen went general office to help her borrow skirt.
And Wuyue was hoping for a long skirt so she can clip up her fringe and tuck in her shirt a lot and show Miss Tang :D
In the end they came back with an even shorter skirt, omg -.-
Then Wuyue was like 'NO I WANT LONG SKIRT' lol! :x

(In class)
Dionis: -takes Chinese newspaper for her & Jt-
Angshuang: WHY NEVER TAKE FOR ME D:
Dionis: Nah, I give you mine. Who cares about Chinese newspaper anyway! What noob shit lah, huh!
Jengteng: Then when need to do jianbao leh? No newspaper.
Dionis: Fine! I go take lah! Stupid newspaper! -bangs newspaper- Wahlao, some more so dirty! Black black one! What the hell!

Me & Jt were laughing like siao :D

Geography.
Imba #2, I'm really very imba okay -.-
When people fail, I get high marks. When people get high marks, I fail -.-
Wth is this man! O:

LA.
I can't believe Dionis actually concentrated & did the personality thing :x

Chinese.
Doodled my red collage :D

Lunch.
With Yunen, Dionis, Jengteng (LOL TOO BAD RASON :D JEALOUS RIGHT!), Zhenting & Clarissa :D
Enya & Nicky went for CS Rehearsal with Wangcong ):
The weather was freaking hot, so me, Dionis, Jt & Ting held hands and went over to Enive to disiao Rason :D

Zhenting: -holds Jt's hand-
Rason: -comes out of class-
Zhenting: OMG! Sorry! Don't jealous ah! Not on purpose one!
Rason: No, I want to ask you -
Zhenting: Don't kill me! Sorry!
Rason: No! As in, tomorrow -
Zhenting: Not on purpose one, really!
Rason: AHHH!

Then Clar was attempting to find her mama, and she ended up getting Rason as a papa O:
Uh, then Sean & Zhihao came back, and Dionis started being damn horny over Zhihao's chest, omg :/
She started laughing like some siao person, then me & Jt were like screaming 'DIONIS, STOP BEING HORNY LAH' -.-
Then Clar locked Zhihao's bottle in her locker, lol 8D

Bizlab.
Reflection stuff?
Then after that went to LT for the debrief stuff.

After school went with Ting, Jt, Dionis, Clar, Jasmine, Zhihao & Rason to the MRT :D
I almost threw Zhihao's watch but Rason threw my phone lah! D: Wth man! ._.
LUCKILY IT LANDED ON THE GRASS MAN ._. IF NOT YOUR PHONE & ALL JT'S SMSES (!) ARE DEAD I TELL YOU -.-
He was trying to snatch with me over the Nokia pronouncing people's names thing ._.
Then on the MRT Dionis fought with me over the N Level guy ):
& she deleted his number from my phone to prevent me from scolding him D:
LOL Clar has 200+ photos in her phone! O:

Because you live/
My world has twice as many stars in the sky <3

♥

Labels: Day 3, ramblings

Labels: lyrics

Another post, just for Elizabeth Goh Yi Ling (aka Siang Picture Fight rival) :D
LOL, yknow Ily very much! (But seriously, who can resist Siang's cuteness? :x)
You can't either, buyer-of-100-molestations-from-Siang O:

♥

Labels: ilovesiang, siang picture fight, YSFC

Sometimes you reach what's real just by making believe/♥

Current song: Ever Ever After - Carrie Underwood
Current mood: Melting (what's wrong with the temperature today ._.)

Apparently this is my 800th post LOL.
But pfft Blogger counts drafts, so yeah I probably have to minus off 20+ drafts or smth O:

Oh yeah I love Liaw Ying Ling Dionis so much, she can always make me laugh 8D

(Yesterday)
Dionis: Eh what's the judge's name?
Angshuang: Judge Taylor I think?
Dionis: Oh. Means his name is Judge is it?

-.-
Ily a lot siaokuku <3 :D
(I love my les partner/bestie, darling & whatthehell too 8D All of you don't jealous LOL :D)

Anyway today :D

The moment I reached class Ting was there.
Then after that the chair suddenly toppled O:
Then we both stared at each, whispered 'OMG' and then we ran out of the class screaming like crazy :x
Ghost, go away O:

History.
Omg Melvin I hate you :/
NINE. NINE OUT OF TEN.
Wth? D:

LA.
Alina was insisting that you're not supposed to stead until you're 20 or something, and if a guy asks her she'll reject the guy o.o
Hahaha even Isaac also reject ah 8D

Recess.
Think my appetite's back :D
Finished milo jia fen for the first time without feeling like I want to puke :D
And then Jt happily let us know that Jinzhi & Clar used to be prefects, omg! -.-

ACC.
I didn't listen to anything O:
Uh Dionis was being emo D:

Maths.
Kind of fell asleep while playing with the calculator o.o

Chinese.
Uh, wasn't listening either ._.
Dionis stop emo-ing lah you.. siaokuku :/

After school me & Dionis escaped from the books 8D
Dionis kind of just shouted at Jt 'EH HELP ME TAKE MY RACKET. WE'RE RUNNING AWAY FROM THE BOOKS -POINTS AT TABLE-' & dragged me off :x
LOL.
Then escaped out of the back door to the hall lol! O:

Omg panic attack, four days to EDS Night! :D

Ily okay, not him or anybody else :D
12 more days to one-month, ilyvm <3

♥

Labels: Day 2, ramblings

If you painted me the summer sunshine/♥

Current song: Immortal - Evanescence
Current mood: Tired

EDS Full Dress (:
(EDS Night is in like, wth, five days?! Omg O:)

Omg the dancers are like seeexy 8D
Especially the sec fours O:
I saw Chingying go like 'O:' when they took off their coats LOLOL 8D biantai :x

Siang's like, taller than me already :x
I have no idea whether that's good or bad o.o
& omg Eli you should've seen him in that white shirt and long pants O:
Gah Siang, please wear them everyday? 8D

♥

Labels: EDS, ramblings

Will you be there? (In case I fall)/♥

Current song: Here Without You - 3 Doors Down
Current mood: Tired

My eyes hurt D: So does my head :/
Eff contacts ):
And it's not like I even managed to put them in -.-
If it wasn't for EDS Night I wouldn't even have tried, believe me O:
Sian, that day managed to put in and take out then today cannot le ._.
Whateverrr.

Have to go back to school like, two hours later ._.
EDS full dress :D
Yay I can't wait to see the dancers :D

♥

Labels: ramblings

(The first time I met you we were standing at the cross-roads, and by some stroke of Fate I dropped the stack of papers I was holding and you were the helpful passer-by who was standing beside me and helped me pick them up. Your eyes were what made me fall in love with you the first time, and so when you asked me out for coffee I smiled and said thank you, I'd love to.)

Happy birthday. Masuda places a single white rose on the gravestone and runs his fingers across the indents of his mother's name.
As he turns to leave the sound of twigs being stepped on makes him glance up.
The person is stumbling out of the forest. She nearly trips and when she splays her hands out for balance she looks up at him.
Don't be scared, he says. I won't hurt you.
She looks at him, fear written across her face, but she manages a small smile. Thank you.
What's your name? He asks.
Tesshi.
Where do you stay? You need a lift? He gestures to his car.
I - I don't know. She bites her lip, blinks rapidly, and he can tell that she is trying not to fall apart in front of a complete stranger. Who am I?
Before he can ask the next question though, she crumples to the ground. Falling angel, he thinks, and then he is moving forward and he manages to catch her in time.

(We talked so much over coffee and toast, and when you looked at your watch, jumped up with a oh God I'm late I thought that we somehow managed to forget about time for that one hour. And then we traded phone numbers and when you smiled I memorised the way it made me feel.)

The doctor glances at her over his clipboard. She answers his questions calmly - Yes, I feel fine. No, I really don't remember anything at all. I don't know.
There is a man who is sitting on the sofa in the hospital room, and when their eyes meet he holds her gaze and smiles.
What was my name? She asks.
Tegoshi, he answers. Tegoshi is your name. Is, not was.
She furrows her brow. Can't I be Tesshi instead, she protests.
He shrugs. Anything you want.
What's your name? And who are you?
Nishikido. I'm your husband, he tells her.
She looks at him and she thinks she doesn't really want to believe that, but still she nods, smiles, and says okay.

(You called me later that day, when I was at some bar downtown with a group of friends like Kei and Kato and Tomohisa, and when I asked where you were you hung up. I was left saying hello? hello? to the beeping dialtone when there was a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and until now I can remember how it felt when you looked me in the eyes, smiled, and said hello.)

A week later she goes to the grocery store three roads down their apartment, and when she is reaching for a can of baked beans another hand reaches it first.
She looks at the owner of the hand. He looks back at her and she thinks she sees shock and surprise flicker across his face but when she stares closely they are replaced by a bright smile. He grabs another can and offers her the first one.
Thank you, she tells him and gives him a smile back in return.
What's your name? He wants to know.
She hesitates for a moment. Tesshi, she tells him.
I'm Masuda, he smiles.
She thinks that she likes Masuda, and so they exchange papers with their numbers scrawled on them and promise to meet sometime, someday, somewhere. She leaves out the part that she's married though. She thinks Masuda doesn't need to know that, at least not now.

(The fireworks were exploding above our heads and everyone else, and when we looked at each other and giggled with excitement and happiness, you slipped your fingers around mine, and I remember how surprised I was that they were a perfect fit.)

Later that day when the stars are dusting the sky he walks into her room.
What's this? He asks, tossing a crumpled ball of paper at her. She picks it up, unrolls it, and she sees Masuda's number scrawled on it.
Oh, she jumps up to her feet. It's nothing, really.
Oh, really. He grabs her by her hair and she flinches. You will not cheat on me, do you understand?
She hates that the tears are falling on their own accord, she doesn't want to be weak, not in front of him.
The next morning he brings her flowers and says he's sorry, he was tired, he didn't mean it and he promises not to do it again.
Don't make promises you and I both know you'll break, she thinks, but she just hooks her fingers with his and tells him she didn't take it to heart anyway.

(After you found out how much I loved flowers you gave them to me everyday, until my house was filled with flowers in every vase in every place possible. I used to collect the petals after they wilted, put them in a huge transparent jar and look at them everyday and smile.)

After he leaves for work Masuda calls, and she listens to his voice while twisting her fingers over and over on the phone cord until her fingers are striped red and white.
Meet me at the grocery store? he asks, and she thinks she can hear the smile in his voice.
She agrees and twenty-nine minutes later they are sitting at an ice cream stall next to the grocery store. She eats a chocolate sundae and licks every bit of it up, and he laughs and calls her greedy. She shoots a glare at him and then stalks off, but he catches her by the arm and apologises.
She tells him she didn't take it to heart, and she notes that although she was lying the first time, she isn't lying this time.

(You proposed on the beach the way I always romanticised about, with the sunset and the sea and you kneeling down in front of everyone and sliding the ring with a single diamond on it onto my finger. Everyone thought that it was perfect, and at that time I thought so to, but we never really got the fact that like flowers, everything perfect dies sooner or later.)

She hears the sound of his slap before she can feel its sting, and her hand flies up to her cheek.
I will not cry, she thinks, and she bites the inside of her cheek until the tears that were blurring her vision dry up.
He slams the door when he leaves, and she curls up with the blanket wrapped around her and sings herself to sleep.

(The first time was a few months later, when I dropped a glass and we both watched, as if in slow-motion, as it fell to the ground and shattered. You yelled at me, and a tear fell onto a glass shard before I picked them up and dropped them into the dustbin. I accidentally cut myself - the scar is still there, on my right index finger - and the blood wouldn't stop flowing. You didn't care, though, just stared out of the window while I washed the cut and wrapped a plaster around it so tight my finger throbbed. After that you asked me if it hurt, and I shook my head, because you've always wanted things to be picture-perfect.)

The memories come back to her in a dream, exploding in her brain and beneath her eyelids and she wakes up, heart beating fastfastfast with the knowledge of who she used to be, who she is.
She glances at him, still sleeping peacefully with the world moving on without him, and she packs the things she thinks she will need into a bag. She looks at him one last time, memorises the outline of his jaw, the tilt of his lips, the curve of his chin and the way it felt when his hands met hers.
And then she scrawls him a note, I'm sorry I can't do this, and then she leaves without a second glance.

(The next few times came in a span of a few weeks, and then a few days, whenever you were in a bad mood or I accidentally did something wrong. Every single time was imprinted into my mind, but the one that hurt me most was the time when you swept the jar full of petals onto the floor. It smashed on the floor and I dropped to my knees, brushing my fingers on the browned petals. I wasn't missing the flowers, though, I was missing the memories and who you used to be.)

She walks until her feet are blisterered and her shirt is drenched with sweat from the sweltering sun, and then she gives up and calls Masuda.
When she hears his warm, friendly voice she breaks down and asks him to come, quick, please I need help. He is worried, and after much questions from him and much shaky breaths and unsure answers from her, a shadow shades her from the sun and she looks up to see him.
He brings her to his house, makes her sit on the dark-green velvet sofa and hands her a glass of water and a cup of ice cream.
She digs the spoon into the ice cream and looks at him questioningly as she starts to eat it.
Ice cream always makes me feel better, he shrugs and looks a little embarrassed.
Thanks, she smiles, and she thinks she falls a little in love.

(I finally made up my mind to run away, from you, from this life, from this love. I didn't want to be seen on the streets though, so I decided to keep to the foresty areas and walk until I could hitch-hike to another city, a thousand miles away, anywhere else except where you were. I was tired, and hungry, but I knew that every step I took was another step away from you, so I didn't stop walking.)

Life is easy with Masuda, she thinks. He is sweet, funny and caring, and she doesn't stop to think about Nishikido except maybe once in a while, a few weeks, a few months.
I think I found my life again, she says one day when they are sitting on the porch barefoot with the summer sunshine turning his hair brown.
I think you are my life, he answers, smiles.
She thinks that she'd like to be his life, so she smiles back and closes her eyes, and she feels safe for the first time in a few years.

(You entered my life with the force of a carcrash, an explosion, a supernova. I loved you with every single bit of my heart and maybe more, and I guess once upon a time maybe you did too.)

♥

Labels: ily, pairing: Ryotego, pairing: Tegomass, random, writings

Ah my appetite sucks lately ):
It's like, I feel supersuper hungry and then when I eat halfway I feel like vomitting O:
Then repeat that like five times a day ._.&thisthingisn'tmakingitbetteranyway.EverytimeIthinkaboutitIfeellikepukingtoo._.
Think I'm suffering from like withdrawal symptoms D:
I miss Ting, Jt, Dionis & Yunen a lot ): YAY PUBLIC DISPLAYS OF AFFECTION LOL.

& Eli, Yuzhen is like frigging lucky D:
Free molestation by Siang D:
(Hahaha, he's growing taller 8D You can get him to be your bf soon O:)

Uh, weird thing I found on the internet :D

First, identify yourself as right- or left- brain person:

1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying. Look at your hands.

Left thumb below the right thumb: left brain
Right thumb below the left thumb: right brain

2. Fold your arms in front of you as if you are angry. Look at your hands.

Right arm above left arm: left brain
Left arm above right arm: right brain


Based on 1 and 2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:

Right-Left: Considerate, traditional, indirect type. Can instinctively read other's emotion and respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking initiatives in moving forward, this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, gives others a 'being protected' feeling. But their weakness is they cannot say no. Regardless how unwilling they are, they will still take care of others.

Right-Right: Straightforward. Once decided on something, they will take action right away. Very curious and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they don't listen to others. They will filter in only what they want to hear in a conversation and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

Left-Left: Dedicated, cold, perfectionist. Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of pride and feels strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponents, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very "anal" as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.

Left-Right: Likes to take care of others, the leader type. Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool, calm nature and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group. Popular among people. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others view them, and always on alert.

Got the Right-Right, doesn't seem very true though o.o

♥

Will fix the skin tomorrow.
It's screwing up on me ._. Just like everything else is.

/edit: Uh, changed skin O: Can I change my life too? :/

♥

I decided that emo-ing is bad O:

I love Yuzhen, Zhenting & Enya :D

Don't worry sunshine, I'm not stealing YZ from you :x Don't kill me. Haha, you are so lucky to have such a nice girlfriend okay 8D
But really, YZ, thank you so much <3 You made me feel hell better :D

Thank you Ting for being there and telling me to go to sleep O:
Haha, Ily <3, and I'm proud of myself too :D

Enya, thank you <3
Haha, what you told me just made me... pissed. Not emo. Which is good lah :D

Uh, thank you Zhihao for being an idiot and making me laugh (a little)? o.o
You suck at comforting people yknow -.-
Like that how to zhui Nicky O:
Thank you to Angel, you don't have to stand up for me, I stood up for myself :D Bashing him up would be bad anyway, you're supposed to be guai O:
/edit:
I think I shall listen to Enyaaa :D A few more days & let's see (:

♥

When you're right here by my side

Friday, April 25, 2008, 9:10 PM (0)

When you're right here by my side/♥

Current song: Because You Live - Jesse McCartney
Current mood: Hungry

Yes I'm very hungry.
I picked at least 20 insects out of my noodles and then I decided that I didn't have appetite to eat anyway ._.

PE, five items ._.
Got A for everything except Standing Broad Jump the sucker D:
Stupid shit ): 7 more cm to A lehhh, wth ._.
Sit&Reach was damn cool lah :D
First try 28cm, second try 44cm LOL wth right! :D

Recess.
Rason attempted to steal our fries except Dionis finished them all O:
Too bad.

Geography.
I think I failed D: &youdidn'tevenreplythatsms.

Chinese.
Threw things at Isaac?
'Cause he called me a fairy ._.
3 stapler bullets went into his shirt and he didn't even know :D

Lunch @ Secret Recipe with Jamie & Raey as usual.
No time to go Tiong Bahru D:
Lol, for some reason the three of us ended up emo-ing there o.o

Fire, then Mr Ken decided our Fast & Fresh roles?
Wenxin pangseh-ed me to escape early to dance class ):

Ended up with Terence, Yulong, Eli, Yuzhen & Yiren :D
Yiren was very happy as he concluded that YZ's initials make up the perfect alphabet, don't need to change anything :D
Hahaha, aw, the sunshine was so bright right, Eli! :D
Our photo-taking skills are awesome lahhh 8D
Next time remember to bring sunblock :D
Yulong is lag lah.

(At Outram Park)
Yiren: -gets off the MRT-
(At Aljunied)
Yulong: Eh, Yiren so fast go le ah?

-.- Wth?YknowsometimesIhavenoideawhat'sinyourmind.SometimesIthinkthiswasjustamistake.SometimesIcan'thelpbutwonderifImadetherightdecision.SometimesIwishthatyoudon'thavethisfreakingabilitytomake&breakmyheart.

♥

Labels: Day 10, EDS, ramblings

Thursday, April 24, 2008, 8:53 PM (0)

Screencaps (as promised).
Not that anyone cares, but yeah :D
Just to make my headache go away ):
I think there are at least 50 caps here o.o
So you can go away now if you don't want to ogle at NEWS :D

Summer Time, NEWS.

Uh, it starts off with an emo-looking Massu.
I hate his horrible light brown highlights.
What's wrong with you JE stylists? D:

I'm glad they're happy in the one & only beach scene in the entire video O:

Shige and a... camera?

Zi-high :D
(Koyama, call what call? o.o)

LOL Pi's so cute :D
So is Tegoshi :D
But he's not with Massu...

Causing Massu to emo.

But he's still reallyreally cute :D

The producer needs to go for English lessons, honestly.
Wth is 'looked strikiking fight in fast ball'?!

Shige & cat :D

Massu and a lot of... directions?

Yamapi is attempting to find the missing Ryo-chan.

Who is still missing. Which explains Pi's pout.

He cheers up here though. Ryo's probably behind the cameraman or something.

Ryo appears.
And it seems that Shige cannot resist the powers of Tegoshi.

Massu and a. Float.

Oh man, I have never seen such a cute zilian-er :D

Who is holding a plate of. Something.

And apparently looking for something too?

He finds that something. Which is apparently... a fruit of some sort?

And he's trying to eat it?

Shige looks nice with pink :D

Uh, Ryo, you can go at a run to her, no problem o.o
But I never saw a 'her' in the entire video, yknow.

:D
Is there a need for words?

The member ai is awesome.
But you people stop leaving Massu out ):
I know Ryo's short, but yeah, Massu's not exactly very tall o.o

Pi :D And his cups, again.
For the... fourth time?
Hoshi wo Mezashite, Weeeek, Taiyou no Namida, now this :D

Tegoshi :D

Shige and another cat.

Kei-chan's trying to be a good wife to Shige. He cooks, he cleans...

And he waters the plants!

Tegoshi, on the other hand, likes to laugh at blenders...

And also toy monkeys.

Ryo is following Koyama's example and trying to be a good wife to Pi by washing clothes.

And Massu's in love with a fish?

Tegoshi returns to his blender.

And apparently throws something inside.

Something that splashes white things?

He blends it.

"Believe!"

Uh, Tegoshi, I'm sure the container won't fit into the blender o.o

So cute 8D

More Tegoshi adorableness.
Ryo & Yamapi are sharing a drink.
And Koyama looks quite pleased at all the member ai going on.

I hope Yamapi doesn't dump Ryo due to...

His ability to destroy the clothes he washes.

"OMFG RYO, WHAT DID YOU DO? O:"

"Oh dear D:"

Tegoshi's back with more things to blend.

What's he doing?

Talking to the blender, apparently.

Pointing included.

Pi is bored.

And he camwhores.

Until he & Shige argue over the camera.

Pi gets it, due to his prettiness.

But he doesn't know how to use it? o.o

Uh. Ryo?

RyoPi! :D

"Come here."

"Kei, help me with the blender please?"

"Nooo, don't go!"

"You're not allowed."

"Aw, please?"

But Koyama is still nice & helpful Koyama after all, and he decides to help Tegoshi.

"Yay!"

Green.

Purple.

Pink!

Ryo O:

Hahaha Koyama's extra at the back :D

Ryo, stop it, please ._.

The End :D

♥

Labels: NEWS, picspam, screencaps

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